Flower Vase Chapter 20

Gu Yan was sincerely impressed. If it were him, he would never have been able to do such a thing.

He felt that Qin Zhiyuan was the one who should go into acting.

After the bride and groom had completed the ceremony, they toasted one table after another.

Zhao Xin was very happy tonight, holding the bride's hand and laughing non-stop. He  couldn't say no to anyone who asked him to drink. Consequently, Qin Zhiyuan had no choice but to rush to the front and try to block as much wine as possible, drinking as many drinks as he could.

He usually doesn't drink or smoke, and he was ill-prepared to drink so much. By the time he got to Gu Yan's table, he had already drank a lot, but was somehow still sober. He stood beside Gu Yan for a while and whispered to him: “Be careful, if you drink too much, don't drive back by yourself."Gu Yan was stunned. Before he could react, Qin Zhiyuan had already gone to the next table, patting Zhao Xin on the shoulder and laughing.

How could he laugh like that?

Gu Yan pondered this question until the end of the reception.

By the end of the night, Qin Zhiyuan's face had become a little ugly. Gu Yan began counting how many times he went to the bathroom, his eyes closed. But he managed not to fall down, and insisted someone help take the drunken Zhao Xin away first, staying behind to see the guests off.

Gu Yan guessed that he was too drunk to go home, so he went to front desk to book a room and to request a cup of warm boiled water. Upon his return to the wedding banquet venue, the guests were almost gone. The crystal chandelier on the ceiling was still shining brightly, and colorful wrapping paper littered the ground. Qin Zhiyuan stood alone in the empty hall, staring blankly at the half-eaten wedding cake.


Gu Yan went to Qin Zhiyuan’s side and handed him the cup. "Drink some water. It'll help the hangover.”

Qin Zhiyuan came back to his senses slowly. He must be really drunk. He looked at Gu Yan quietly for a moment, and then, as if he recognized him, took the cup and thanked him.

Gu Yan said, "I have a room downstairs. Do you want to lie down?”

"It doesn't matter," Qin Zhiyuan pulled a chair and sat down. He rubbed his eyebrows and said, "I want to sit down for a while.”

After a pause, he said again: “Haven’t you been avoiding me? Why take the initiative to talk to me today?”

"Tonight is special.”

Qin Zhiyuan nodded and the beautiful light of the chandelier reflected in his black eyes. He said with a melancholic smile: “To love him openly... this will be the last night.”

Gu Yan couldn't help asking, "Have you ever been open with him?”

Qin Zhiyuan thought about it carefully and said with a wry smile, “Never."
 

He raised his hand to cover his eyes, and his voice became a little hoarse: "Why is the light so dazzling?”

Gu Yan walked out silently.

A moment later, there was a "pa" sound, and all the lights in the hall went out.

Only a little light came in outside the window.

Qin Zhiyuan breathed a sigh of relief in the darkness and felt his face had become a little stiff from all the laughter. He saw a blurry figure stumbling past the table and chair towards him.

He was so drunk that he couldn't remember who the figure was. But he naturally took the other's hand, and a name suddenly popped up in his mind: "Gu Yan.”

When Qin Zhiyuan's finger stroked the scar on his palm, Gu Yan struggled a little, before finally giving up and allowing his hand to be held.

Silence filled the room.

Gu Yan leaned on the back of the chair slightly, watching the twinkling stars outside the window with Qin Zhiyuan for a while, before suddenly asking, "Why did you keep coming to see me earlier?"

Qin Zhiyuan didn't answer, and eventually whispered, "...a headache."

Gu Yan had no choice but to help him. He massaged his forehead and asked, "Do you want to drink some water?”

“No need," Qin Zhiyuan finally felt more comfortable. He braced himself and said, “I just want to talk to you. I've always wanted to ask you a question.”

“What’s that?”

“That day...the day you left my house. Why did you thank me?”

Gu Yan was stunned, and finally realized that Qin Zhiyuan had always hated being robbed of his lines. Normally, Gu Yan would have responded with a few jokes at Qin Zhiyuan’s expense, but after a moment of hesitation, he spoke the truth: "You love someone you can't get. Although there will be the pain of tossing and turning, there will also be a sweetness that you are reluctant to say, right?”

Qin Zhiyuan's expression could not be seen clearly in the dark.

But he shook Gu Yan's hand and then slowly tightened it. "It's all my fault.”

“Hm?"

"You shouldn't start another relationship before you’ve ended the previous one.”

“And is it over now?”

Qin Zhiyuan usually plays his cards close to his chest. He may indeed be drunk tonight when he honestly replies, "I don't know.”

Gu Yan expected this answer. If it was so easy to forget a person, there would be fewer men and women in this world. He continued to massage Qin Zhiyuan for a while, and said in a soft voice, “It's okay, take your time, time heals all wounds.”

Even the deepest love will pass.

The only question was whether Qin Zhiyuan would forget Zhao Xin first, or whether Gu Yan would forget Qin Zhiyuan.

Qin Zhiyuan mumbled a reply, and gradually fell asleep on his chair.

Gu Yan sat beside him for a long time before he asked a waiter to help him. He took Qin Zhiyuan to his room downstairs. Qin Zhiyuan was drunk and confused. He didn't take off his shoes or change his clothes. He just poured himself into bed.

Gu Yan was too lazy to help him undress, so he pulled the quilt to cover him casually, and lay down next to him. But he didn't feel sleepy at all, so he lowered his head and stared at Qin Zhiyuan's sleeping face. Even if I kiss those eyes, no one would know.

But Gu Yan restrained such tenderness.

He thought Qin Zhiyuan would call Zhao Xin's name, and had even had made psychological preparations, but Qin Zhiyuan never did. He slept very quietly, holding Gu Yan's hand from start to finish, and said sorry very softly.

Sorry, it's too late to fall in love with you.

Gu Yan didn't sleep all night. Seeing the sky outside the window gradually lighten, his spirit was surprisingly good. He still had work that afternoon, so he didn't go home to change his clothes. He simply freshened up in the hotel bathroom and called Xiao Chen to come pick him up.

Xiao Chen certainly did not forget to gossip about Zhao Xin's wedding.

Gu Yan picked out some unimportant details and told him. After chatting and chatting, he finally felt sleepy and passed out in the car. When he arrived at the studio, just in time to start work, Gu Yan's face was a little pale. Fortunately, he had to put on the disfigured makeup. The fake scar that was put on his face covered any sign of sleep loss.

He had only one scene to shoot that day.

In order to save the heroine, the character he played was seriously injured by the people of the opposing camp. He fell down in the heavy rain and never stood up again.

Most of Gu Yan's previous roles were male protagonists, and he rarely played a character who died, so this scene was NG several times. He was soaked by the artificial rain, and fell into the muddy water again and again, leaving him covered in stains.


However, the director has a great reputation and an even greater temper. He wanted to throw the script at him and scold: "Big star, can you give me more expressions? Can you act or not?”

Gu Yan was silent.

No one spoke, but everyone was staring at him.

Everyone can see how his acting skills are. Everyone knows that he can't act, he just crawled into the right bed.

Gu Yan wiped the rain off his face and said, "Let's do it again.”

His attitude was so good the director couldn't get angry. He gritted his teeth and said, "If it doesn't work this time, it's time to call it a day.”

After a pause, he said again: "Imagine that you are about to die, and the woman you love is with another man... is it be difficult to act out such a desperate mood?”

Gu Yan shook his head, walked over and took his place again.

Yes, what's so difficult?

He has finished even the most difficult of scenes.

The heavy rain fell again, and the water droplets hit Gu Yan with a rush, causing a faint pain. He first supported the sword with one hand and covered his chest with the other. Then his hand began to sink down slowly as if he could not support the weight of the sword. Finally, he released his sword and fell completely in the rain.

The splash blurred his eyes.

Gu Yan didn't try to move his body. He knew he could not stand up again, but he still kept his eyes wide open, imagining that his beloved would appear in the next moment.

The cold water kept falling, and he seemed to see Qin Zhiyuan.

He is in the rain, but also outside the rain.

It's like a dream that you can reach out and touch.

In fact, his dream is very simple, that is, to earn money to support his family during the day, to cook at night, and to raise his sweetheart to be fat. Only in this way could he have a sense of achievement. Qin Zhiyuan had given him the illusion of his dream becoming realized. The most terrifying thing is getting what you ask for, but just as you can reach out to take it, you are forced to wake up to reality.

Everything was just an illusion, and he didn't wait for him arrive before he died.

Tears mixed with rain.

As written in the script, he quietly and obsessively... loved him all his life.

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Flower Vase Chapter 19

Raws

Even Qin Zhiyuan thought that he had been discourteous. He turned his head to look out the window for a while, rubbing his forehead to let his emotions settle. He finally said, "Sorry, I was just taken aback.”

It will never compare to the surprise Qin Zhiyuan gave Gu Yan on the day of the car accident.

So Gu Yan didn't take it seriously at all, and said very peacefully, "If you’re done talking, I will send you back.”

"Wait a minute.”

Qin Zhiyuan hurriedly called out. He thought it was too awkward to talk like this, so he hopped out of the backseat, moving to the front passenger's door, so he could sit next to Gu Yan.

Gu Yan did not object, and quietly waited for him to speak.

Qin Zhiyuan was not in a hurry, looked at his face carefully, and said, "It seems you have gained a little weight.”

“Eating well and sleeping well, it's hard to lose weight.”

"I heard about the scandal. I didn't expect Qin Feng to make such a mess, and that model…"

Gu Yan waved his hand and interrupted him, "It's just a misunderstanding, it's over.”

“Unfortunately, it's difficult to make a film. It's half done, and it's too late to change the script. I know you never play a supporting role. This time, just be patient. You will be the leading actor in the next drama.”

Qin Zhiyuan spoke very seriously, but the more Gu Yan listened the funnier it got, and finally he leaned on the steering wheel and laughed.

"What are you laughing at?”

"You don't owe me anything, whether it's a deal or a relationship. You don't have to compensate me like this." Done laughing, Gu Yan tilted his head to look at Qin Zhiyuan and said, "You can choose to be the protagonist or the supporting role in a movie. If you don't like your casting you can simply pick a different job, but in the real world there are many roles you can't choose.”

Qin Zhiyuan could not fail to understand the meaning of these words.

His chest was stifled. His right hand was first clenched into a fist, then slowly loosened. He reached out to take Gu Yan's hand and said, "I have never inquired about your situation in the past few months abroad, and I made up my mind that I would never see you again after I returned.”

“A very wise decision.”

"I thought I could find someone to replace you, but the moment I saw you in the restaurant just now, I couldn't control myself. I…"

Gu Yan cut him off: "Humans are very emotional animals. After living together for so long it might be hard for a while, but gradually you will adapt.”

For example, he has finally adapted to learn how to distinguish Qin Zhiyuan's honeyed words.

It’s enough to play a supporting role once, why should I have to play one a second or third time?

Qin Zhiyuan fell silent, then said after a while, "It's easy to fall in love with someone, but it's hundreds of times harder to forget someone.”

“I understand.”

“Want to guess the first thing I did after returning to China?”

Gu Yan blinked and said, “You asked a beautiful woman with an exquisite figure to dinner?”

Qin Zhiyuan almost laughed, but in the end he just sighed, looked up at the dark night outside the car window, and said, "I burned all those photo albums and notebooks, and I didn't leave a single one.”

Gu Yan was stunned.

Qin Zhiyuan had said so much nonsense before, but when it came to the critical moment, he was reluctant to say more. As if afraid of being seen by Gu Yan, he gently released his hand. “I’m done talking, you go home first, no need to send me off.”

As he spoke, he opened the door and got out of the car.

As he helped Gu Yan to close the car door, he did not forget to add: "Be careful when driving at night.”

Gu Yan couldn’t remember how he answered. He could only feel the cold of the early spring night. Qin Zhiyuan stood on the side of the road and watched him for a long time, until the car started, and as Gu Yan drove away and he could still see the figure in the rearview mirror.

After returning home, he received a text message from Qin Zhiyuan, asking him if he had arrived home safely.

Gu Yan glanced at it, threw the phone aside, and went to bed without replying.

Sleep did not come easily.

Fortunately, there was no work the next day, and Gu Yan slept until almost noon before getting up. He took a look at his mobile phone, and Qin Zhiyuan had sent another text message asking him to have dinner together in the evening.

Before Gu Yan could get back to him, Xiao Chen called first and shouted excitedly, "Brother Yan, big gossip!”

Gu Yan was afraid that he would be too excited, so he hurriedly said, "Speak slowly, don't rush.”

"Brother Yan, do you still remember the little model who came to the studio that day? What’s her name? Lily or Lulu? I heard that she has been with Young Master Qin for so long, she finally got the opportunity to participate in an international fashion show. The top management of her company has just said that the scandal had a bad effect, so she has to turn around and give the job to someone else... I'm afraid she’s filled with regret now…"

Xiao Chen had been resentful about Gu Yan's being beaten, but now he finally breathes a sigh of relief.

Gu Yan didn't feel anything. He wasn't angry at first, nor did he feel happy. He just sighed to himself that Qin Zhiyuan's efficiency in getting things done was really good.

Xiao Chen finished the gossip about this matter, and the joy didn't fade away, so he continued: "By the way, Brother Yan, have you heard? Director Zhao is getting married next month.”

Gu Yan was stunned for a moment, of course he knew who Director Zhao was, but he still asked, "Zhao Xin?”

"Well, it was said that it was originally just an engagement, but because of the car accident, neither of them wanted to drag it on any longer, so they directly changed it to marriage. Brother Yan, you know Director Zhao very well, so you should go to the wedding, right?”

Actually, Gu Yan and Zhao Xin were closer to acquaintances, but because the two had a car accident together, Xiao Chen automatically thought they were very close. Gu Yan was too lazy to explain, so he responded with a perfunctory response, "It depends on whether Director Zhao invites me.”

Then he chatted with Xiao Chen about trivial matters. After hanging up, Gu Yan fiddled with his phone and sat silently beside the bed for a while.

After a proposal marriage follows, of course.

Since Qin Zhiyuan had accompanied Zhao Xin to go abroad for medical treatment, it makes no sense for him not to know the news.

Gu Yan habitually rubbed his right palm. After thinking about repeatedly, he felt relieved to understand what Qin Zhiyuan said last night.

I see.
 

What other reason could there be? It could only be that.

In the end, Gu Yan didn't reply to Qin Zhiyuan's text message.

He removed the mobile phone card and threw it away. In the afternoon, he bought a new one, and notified everyone who should know the new number. As for those who shouldn't know... Of course, none of them were told.

After only two days, Qin Zhiyuan came to the studio to find him.

At that time, Gu Yan had already put on makeup, and was acting with a disfigured face. The shirt on his body was torn and the fake scars on his face were ferocious and twisted, making him feel mortified to be seen.

Qin Zhiyuan stood outside and smiled at him. He raised his hand to take a picture.
 

Pretending not to see him, Gu Yan shook the sword in his hand turned his head to continue to act.

Qin Zhiyuan patiently waited until Gu Yan sat down to rest. He strode over, handing Gu Yan a bottle of water, and said, "I can't seem to get through to you these days.”

"Oh, I got a new number." Gu Yan accepted the water bottle easily, unscrewed the lid and took a sip.

“Why?"

"The old number was unlucky.”

This excuse was too perfunctory, Qin Zhiyuan immediately asked, "Is it because of me?”

Gu Yan just smiled.

Qin Zhiyuan lowered his head to look at him and said, "I heard that when you gave someone your new number, you specifically explained that they should not reveal it to irrelevant people. Is this referring to me specifically?”

How could the big boss be irrelevant?

Even if Gu Yan thought as much, it was impossible for him say so. Choosing not to respond directly to the question, he softly said "I received a wedding invitation from Director Zhao.”

Qin Zhiyuan's body froze slightly.

"On the fifth of next month, I will go to watch the ceremony.”

After speaking, Gu Yan put the water bottle back into Qin Zhiyuan's hand, got up and strode away.

He thought that with this stab, Qin Zhiyuan would definitely not want to see him in the near future, but unexpectedly he continued to return perseveringly as if nothing had happened.

Gu Yan had no choice but to use the means of avoiding fans to avoid him.

Qin Zhiyuan was neither in rushed nor annoyed, and maintained his good demeanor to the end, not pushing him too hard.

The two didn't meet again until Zhao Xin's wedding.

The wedding was not very grand, only some relatives and friends were invited, and the location was chosen at the hotel where the celebration banquet was held last time. It is said that Zhao Xin proposed marriage at this place, which is considered a romantic location.

Zhao Xin, who was usually untidy, took good care of himself that day. His white shirt and black suit combined with his elaborately decorated hair style were very tasteful. Standing with the gentle and graceful bride, they really were a beautiful couple.

The beauty of such a couple creates envy in others.

As Gu Yan looked at the groom, his eyes fell on Qin Zhiyuan, who was the best man next to him. His clothes were well chosen today. The iron gray suit was not eye-catching. It did not overshadow the groom, but also sets him apart very well.

Gu Yan admired the beautiful waist line. His mind was full of imagination, and he even ate a lot of food.

Qin Zhiyuan was smiling all night.

He helped to greet guests, take photos, distribute cigarettes, and collect red envelopes. He took care of everything big and small. As a friend, even if he didn't get a score of 100, it was more than enough to get a score of 90.

When exchanging rings, the best man must give the pair of rings to the groom.

Gu Yan watched the scene while eating vegetables. He could not help but picture Qin Zhiyuan taking out the ring and throwing it on the ground, then grabbing Zhao Xin's hand and rushing out of the hotel.

Of course nothing happened.

The bride and groom successfully put the rings on each other's hands, hugged and kissed to the sound of blessings, and their sweet expressions made people jealous. Qin Zhiyuan stood closest to Zhao Xin and clapped. The corners of his mouth always kept an upward arc, his eyes lit up with laughter.

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