Flower Vase Chapter 20

Gu Yan was sincerely impressed. If it were him, he would never have been able to do such a thing.

He felt that Qin Zhiyuan was the one who should go into acting.

After the bride and groom had completed the ceremony, they toasted one table after another.

Zhao Xin was very happy tonight, holding the bride's hand and laughing non-stop. He  couldn't say no to anyone who asked him to drink. Consequently, Qin Zhiyuan had no choice but to rush to the front and try to block as much wine as possible, drinking as many drinks as he could.

He usually doesn't drink or smoke, and he was ill-prepared to drink so much. By the time he got to Gu Yan's table, he had already drank a lot, but was somehow still sober. He stood beside Gu Yan for a while and whispered to him: “Be careful, if you drink too much, don't drive back by yourself."Gu Yan was stunned. Before he could react, Qin Zhiyuan had already gone to the next table, patting Zhao Xin on the shoulder and laughing.

How could he laugh like that?

Gu Yan pondered this question until the end of the reception.

By the end of the night, Qin Zhiyuan's face had become a little ugly. Gu Yan began counting how many times he went to the bathroom, his eyes closed. But he managed not to fall down, and insisted someone help take the drunken Zhao Xin away first, staying behind to see the guests off.

Gu Yan guessed that he was too drunk to go home, so he went to front desk to book a room and to request a cup of warm boiled water. Upon his return to the wedding banquet venue, the guests were almost gone. The crystal chandelier on the ceiling was still shining brightly, and colorful wrapping paper littered the ground. Qin Zhiyuan stood alone in the empty hall, staring blankly at the half-eaten wedding cake.


Gu Yan went to Qin Zhiyuan’s side and handed him the cup. "Drink some water. It'll help the hangover.”

Qin Zhiyuan came back to his senses slowly. He must be really drunk. He looked at Gu Yan quietly for a moment, and then, as if he recognized him, took the cup and thanked him.

Gu Yan said, "I have a room downstairs. Do you want to lie down?”

"It doesn't matter," Qin Zhiyuan pulled a chair and sat down. He rubbed his eyebrows and said, "I want to sit down for a while.”

After a pause, he said again: “Haven’t you been avoiding me? Why take the initiative to talk to me today?”

"Tonight is special.”

Qin Zhiyuan nodded and the beautiful light of the chandelier reflected in his black eyes. He said with a melancholic smile: “To love him openly... this will be the last night.”

Gu Yan couldn't help asking, "Have you ever been open with him?”

Qin Zhiyuan thought about it carefully and said with a wry smile, “Never."
 

He raised his hand to cover his eyes, and his voice became a little hoarse: "Why is the light so dazzling?”

Gu Yan walked out silently.

A moment later, there was a "pa" sound, and all the lights in the hall went out.

Only a little light came in outside the window.

Qin Zhiyuan breathed a sigh of relief in the darkness and felt his face had become a little stiff from all the laughter. He saw a blurry figure stumbling past the table and chair towards him.

He was so drunk that he couldn't remember who the figure was. But he naturally took the other's hand, and a name suddenly popped up in his mind: "Gu Yan.”

When Qin Zhiyuan's finger stroked the scar on his palm, Gu Yan struggled a little, before finally giving up and allowing his hand to be held.

Silence filled the room.

Gu Yan leaned on the back of the chair slightly, watching the twinkling stars outside the window with Qin Zhiyuan for a while, before suddenly asking, "Why did you keep coming to see me earlier?"

Qin Zhiyuan didn't answer, and eventually whispered, "...a headache."

Gu Yan had no choice but to help him. He massaged his forehead and asked, "Do you want to drink some water?”

“No need," Qin Zhiyuan finally felt more comfortable. He braced himself and said, “I just want to talk to you. I've always wanted to ask you a question.”

“What’s that?”

“That day...the day you left my house. Why did you thank me?”

Gu Yan was stunned, and finally realized that Qin Zhiyuan had always hated being robbed of his lines. Normally, Gu Yan would have responded with a few jokes at Qin Zhiyuan’s expense, but after a moment of hesitation, he spoke the truth: "You love someone you can't get. Although there will be the pain of tossing and turning, there will also be a sweetness that you are reluctant to say, right?”

Qin Zhiyuan's expression could not be seen clearly in the dark.

But he shook Gu Yan's hand and then slowly tightened it. "It's all my fault.”

“Hm?"

"You shouldn't start another relationship before you’ve ended the previous one.”

“And is it over now?”

Qin Zhiyuan usually plays his cards close to his chest. He may indeed be drunk tonight when he honestly replies, "I don't know.”

Gu Yan expected this answer. If it was so easy to forget a person, there would be fewer men and women in this world. He continued to massage Qin Zhiyuan for a while, and said in a soft voice, “It's okay, take your time, time heals all wounds.”

Even the deepest love will pass.

The only question was whether Qin Zhiyuan would forget Zhao Xin first, or whether Gu Yan would forget Qin Zhiyuan.

Qin Zhiyuan mumbled a reply, and gradually fell asleep on his chair.

Gu Yan sat beside him for a long time before he asked a waiter to help him. He took Qin Zhiyuan to his room downstairs. Qin Zhiyuan was drunk and confused. He didn't take off his shoes or change his clothes. He just poured himself into bed.

Gu Yan was too lazy to help him undress, so he pulled the quilt to cover him casually, and lay down next to him. But he didn't feel sleepy at all, so he lowered his head and stared at Qin Zhiyuan's sleeping face. Even if I kiss those eyes, no one would know.

But Gu Yan restrained such tenderness.

He thought Qin Zhiyuan would call Zhao Xin's name, and had even had made psychological preparations, but Qin Zhiyuan never did. He slept very quietly, holding Gu Yan's hand from start to finish, and said sorry very softly.

Sorry, it's too late to fall in love with you.

Gu Yan didn't sleep all night. Seeing the sky outside the window gradually lighten, his spirit was surprisingly good. He still had work that afternoon, so he didn't go home to change his clothes. He simply freshened up in the hotel bathroom and called Xiao Chen to come pick him up.

Xiao Chen certainly did not forget to gossip about Zhao Xin's wedding.

Gu Yan picked out some unimportant details and told him. After chatting and chatting, he finally felt sleepy and passed out in the car. When he arrived at the studio, just in time to start work, Gu Yan's face was a little pale. Fortunately, he had to put on the disfigured makeup. The fake scar that was put on his face covered any sign of sleep loss.

He had only one scene to shoot that day.

In order to save the heroine, the character he played was seriously injured by the people of the opposing camp. He fell down in the heavy rain and never stood up again.

Most of Gu Yan's previous roles were male protagonists, and he rarely played a character who died, so this scene was NG several times. He was soaked by the artificial rain, and fell into the muddy water again and again, leaving him covered in stains.


However, the director has a great reputation and an even greater temper. He wanted to throw the script at him and scold: "Big star, can you give me more expressions? Can you act or not?”

Gu Yan was silent.

No one spoke, but everyone was staring at him.

Everyone can see how his acting skills are. Everyone knows that he can't act, he just crawled into the right bed.

Gu Yan wiped the rain off his face and said, "Let's do it again.”

His attitude was so good the director couldn't get angry. He gritted his teeth and said, "If it doesn't work this time, it's time to call it a day.”

After a pause, he said again: "Imagine that you are about to die, and the woman you love is with another man... is it be difficult to act out such a desperate mood?”

Gu Yan shook his head, walked over and took his place again.

Yes, what's so difficult?

He has finished even the most difficult of scenes.

The heavy rain fell again, and the water droplets hit Gu Yan with a rush, causing a faint pain. He first supported the sword with one hand and covered his chest with the other. Then his hand began to sink down slowly as if he could not support the weight of the sword. Finally, he released his sword and fell completely in the rain.

The splash blurred his eyes.

Gu Yan didn't try to move his body. He knew he could not stand up again, but he still kept his eyes wide open, imagining that his beloved would appear in the next moment.

The cold water kept falling, and he seemed to see Qin Zhiyuan.

He is in the rain, but also outside the rain.

It's like a dream that you can reach out and touch.

In fact, his dream is very simple, that is, to earn money to support his family during the day, to cook at night, and to raise his sweetheart to be fat. Only in this way could he have a sense of achievement. Qin Zhiyuan had given him the illusion of his dream becoming realized. The most terrifying thing is getting what you ask for, but just as you can reach out to take it, you are forced to wake up to reality.

Everything was just an illusion, and he didn't wait for him arrive before he died.

Tears mixed with rain.

As written in the script, he quietly and obsessively... loved him all his life.

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